Sunday, 22 July 2012
Getting into gear
I have so many half finished posts that I just don't know where to start. So much I want to write about but then I keep changing my mind. And if I'm honest there is something bothering me. I just need to write it and move on.
In 6 weeks time I am due to go back to work. I worry every day about my little babies being without me but then I feel bad for wanting to write about it because, let's be honest, they aren't exactly babies anymore. I'm an attachment parent (if a label is needed) and I'd love to stay at home with them all the time - our lives seem so idyllic now but I have had a year off so it's time to face the music.
Before I had Freddy I was a career woman. Then I met my husband and everything fell into place. I finally found out what is important in life, what makes me happy, what I need and what I can give. He taught me so much about shaping one's own life and about how there is never a better time than right away to do something that you have always dreamed about.
We started our family and I took 2 years maternity leave, 1 for Freddy and 1 for Henry with just a few months of working in France in between. Since then we have been working hard to find out what our dreams are for our family and starting to put them into place. That's why this seems like such a difficult moment for me. Because going back to work (even though it won't be for very long) is not what I have been dreaming about. But it does fit in with our longer term plan which you will soon see I hope :)
I am not the type of person to have to go to work for my own sanity or in search of adult conversation - I am quite happy at home with my babies and my husband. I am never ever bored. I have a million projects and business ideas in my head that I want to try and the full support of my husband to do them. So why am I going back to work?
let's hope that by writing this I can remove the mental blockage that has been clogging up my mind and normal service can once again resume.
Thank you for bearing with me :)
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